I know you believe in me. It's about time I believe in myself.

I missed the wednesday post this week. I’d like to think it was for good reasons.

I want to hit a wednesday deadline every week, but I know life can get in the way. It’s not that I didn’t have anything to write about, and it’s not even that I didn’t spend any of the time writing, I think it was because of how much is going on right now. It’s weird.

I don’t really know when it happened, or how, but something changed… I’ve felt more blessed than ever before, and that intimidates me. I’ve never really had things go this well, I’ve always been a dreamer, but now those dreams are starting to come true. I feel truly favoured. I’m lucky. I’m grateful. I’m blessed.

Last week I got to do my first artist interview with the incredibly humble and incredibly talented Clairmont The Second, thanks to the supportive people over at Sidedoor Magazine. They gave me a platform and blessed me with the opportunity.

I also had an interview with HotNewHipHop… then got offered the position to write for them… 30 hours a week… paid.

This week I have my second artist interview, this one produced by FRAGMENT. It’s with Rose Red Youth. I met the lead singer at Peak Power. Their upcoming project is incredible, and by doing what I love, and asking for the opportunity to do this interview, I got the exclusive listen…

Then I got asked by Sidedoor to conduct another interview. This time for TVGUCCI, who works with OVO.

I also think I might be able to land an interview with WizTheMC because of how dope of a dude he is- and because of how supportive my friends are.

I don’t really get it. But I don’t care. I’m learning to trust myself as much as my people trust me.

OH yeah, I also had a “therapy” session. Nate’s wifey is in school for Social Work, and had an assignment where she had to conduct a mock therapy session. The experience was eyeopening… and very difficult to listen back to. Not because I didn’t love the insights and self growth, but because I say “yeah” an unreasonable amount of times lol.

One of the biggest takeaways for me was that, I need to trust my team’s belief in me.

If everyone else truly feels that I can do dope shit, then why would I be afraid to try and do dope shit? It’s had me dumb motivated. I’ve never believed in myself so much. I’ve never believed in us so much. I’m happy about it. I’m excited for what we’re going to accomplish. Together.

I pray the positive momentum carries over forever.

Until next week,

Bhaven

P.S. one of my best friends is leaving to Holland this week, to do some work for the UN… She’s one of my biggest inspirations. Her farewell dinner was an absolute vibe. Got to see some old friends, got to make some new ones. The vibes were absolutely correct. God bless. Stay safe and have fun AK. Hopefully I can get out of the basement long enough to visit you out there lol.